Oftentimes, I’ve come to ponder whether I, myself, am far ahead of my time. I do not make such a declaration to imply that I possess brilliant ideas or thoughts that will revolutionize the world (though, I should add here that I indeed would like to revolutionize the world J). Instead, I say this to possibly qualify the experiences I have had in the recent past.
I’ve found that I embody personality traits that are perhaps far from those that characterize one’s typical concept of a 20-something in today’s society: I prefer to stay at home, rather than explore the seemingly unattractive haunts of debauchery. I prefer to nurture the introvert who I have discovered and learned to accept of late, rather than perpetuate a façade of the opposite. I prefer to identify and appreciate the intricacies of my interests and goals, rather than discount them as lofty or unfeasible. Understandably, I do not mean to imply that those of my age and generation are apt to consider such a point of view about their own, as well as others’, ambitions. I do, however, believe such a train of thought is rampant in our society, transgressing all demographical barriers, which lends to latent individuals who drudge about their monotonous lives, without ever striving for their every dream.
I am again swayed to referencing this procession of behavior and thought patterns that I have deemed a personal journey to self-discovery and appreciation. Unfortunately and perhaps thankfully, I am nowhere near being definitively happy with the person I have become and see myself becoming. That is not to say, of course, that I am unhappy. I have found I have surpassed the border of the former (happy) and the latter (unhappy); indeed, I’ve been teetering for many months, perhaps years, to the right of this invisible boundary, approaching the verge of utter bliss, but admittedly falling quite short. I am convinced that this unfortunate gap will be filled in the (hopefully) near future. In all, I suppose I am declaring that I have finally found peace of mind and self-acceptance in understanding that I must embark on this journey to truly appreciate myself as an individual, in a society and age when, on the whole, many possess dismal levels of self-confidence and appreciation. I’ve decided through experiences that this concept is absolutely vital in approaching life with an open mind and heart and building relationships with care and consideration.
I suppose I should verbalize the fear that I’ve spoken these words previously and perhaps my words do not hold true merit, if I do not develop a “game-plan” of sorts, in order to actually embark on this journey I have defined the purpose of for so seemingly long.
I am absolutely of the belief that words cannot hold merit until actions can be used to qualify them.
Thus, I have decided to develop this actual process further, to offer myself a concrete plan of action that I can pursue further; and I am now determined to present this timeline in my subsequent postings here.
Stay tuned
J
